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Emotionally Untidy

by Rachel Maria Cox

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released June 1, 2017

Music & lyrics written by Rachel Maria Cox
Recorded & mixed by Joe Andersons at Woodriver Studios

Vocals & keys performed by Rachel Maria Cox
Lead Guitar performed by Josh Gibson
Bass performed by Wil Houlcroft
Drums performed by James Edge
Rhythm Guitar performed by Jack Lundie

Mastered by Michael Sale

Artwork by Cath Connell



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Western Sydney via Newcastle sadcore.

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Track Name: Emotionally Untidy
My heart doesn’t beat so well anymore / The doctors say it’s electrolytes or not sleeping until four / and all my friends say it could be the energy drinks too / but that gripping in my chest just feels like you / My heart doesn’t beat so well these days / and I know I should quit my vices but I’m just stuck in my ways / I don’t have the willpower to ask you stay / but my cardiac arrhythmia might help you syncopate / That leaves me lying on this bed where your touch lit up my skin / with another person’s head on the pillow beside me / and that guy who wrote that song about me has started drunk texting / It’s not that messy, just EMOTIONALLY UNTIDY / Well my head runs around in circles these days / because it’s not sex, it has always been the love that I crave / I’m still trying to find the words to pin down people to a page / as though articulation might make them stay / but I’ve never been a writer, or at least not very well / They always told me I should show when all I want to do is tell / the story that’s the same every time: you tell me yours, I’ll tell you mine / I think you’re just my type / Well you leant me those books that say more about you than I could ever know / I went to read the second one and thought you’d left me a note / but it was just the form your ex-girlfriend signed when she moved out / alone.